Most of you probably aren't aware, but I have an eating disorder. It cripples my work and social life and keeps me very sick. It the past I've tried to hide it, because I feel like I'd be a disappointment to my fans for being not-perfect. It's been a tough decision for me to post this, but it's therapeutic for me to talk about my illness. I based this drawing on the most common things that I think during the week.

I hope someday to do a graphic novel about anorexia...however I don't think anyone would pick it up for publication because I've been told it won't ever sell nearly as well as the average run of gothic lolita filler.

Anorexia is a serious disease that can easily turn fatal if not treated. Roughly one in four girls with severe anorexia die from it. Contrary to the public's knowledge, anorexia is not about wanting to be thin like supermodels. Most times it's a way of controlling part of you so your life doesn't seem so completely out of your control...this is why a lot of anorexic young women are overacheivers with packed schedules and high standards set for them by family or peers. A lot of anorexics don't hate overweight women, they only hate themselves for losing control. I don't have anything against women who are heavier than me...I can easily see a picure of a plus-size model and think she's pretty, then look in the mirror and call myself fat.

Anorexia is an unreasoning disease that makes you think in strange ways, which is why it's a mental illness. It's like having a little monster in your head, telling you crazy things that you can't tune out.

I'll be posting a few more drawings later along this theme. I appreciate your feedback!